I'm naturally a pretty stubborn person. When I make a decision, I stick to it.
You issue me a challenge? Prepare to watch me meet that challenge and then exceed it.
So sometimes knowing when to say no or when to back off a little bit can be hard for me to do.
So when my knee started acting up the other day, the last thing I wanted to do was take time off. I'd be damned if I was going to let something little like some knee pain stop me from doing what I love to do. I had races to train for. I had a runstreak to continue. And more importantly, running is my sanctuary. My calm in the storm. Even when everything else is going crazy around me, I know that I will get at least one mile of time that is just for me.
But here I am, with a knee, that for unexplicable reasons, HURTS. I've broken several bones, so I know pain. And it's not that bad. But it hurts. It hurts to sit. It hurts to walk. To stand. To run.
But it doesn't hurt anymore when I run than it does when I sit on my ass. So I've still been running. But I'm worried that it's not getting better or that I'm making it worse. So I have backed off. I've decreased my distance. I slowed my pace. And, as it turns out, I have a doctor's appointment already scheduled for tomorrow. So just add the knee pain to the things that I need to talk to the Doc about. I'm keeping my fingers crossed it's nothing serious. Because I have plans.
And this has been a good learning experience for me. To know when my body says I should slow it down. Because I usually push myself past that point, to where I drop from pain and exhaustion. But this runstreak has taught me that listening to what my body needs and wants is important in achieving my long term goals. That I need to take it one day at a time and that sometimes it's ok to miss the mark in the short term in order to reach something bigger.
ANYWAYS! Like I said... Fingers crossed for tomorrow... I'm hoping it goes well. Because lord knows, I'm probably not going to listen to the doctor if she tells me to stop running.
That's just crazy talk.